Day One

As it does feel liberating to actually commit to this, I do know it is better to not make a commitment at all then to not keep it so I take this seriously. It's crazy, but I'm not kidding, as soon as I said yes to this in my heart, I was immediately frantically thumbing through the Bible being drawn to 5 places in scripture...

1. "Remain in Me as I also remain in you." John 15:4

2. " Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Josh 1:8-9 

3. "Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.  James 1:22-25

4. "Come near to God and He will come near to you." James 4:8

5. "Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up." James 4:10 

As I reflected over these verses, I noticed a theme throughout, there are action points for me to carry out tied to a promise from God.

Along with these verses, I was also bombarded with 5 prayers...

1.To have Your eyes, ears, hands, and heart every day.

2. To see the big picture and take my blinders off and quit judging others.

3. To focus intently on loving my husband by allowing the Holy Spirit to fill in my weaknesses and to specifically...listen, use gentle kind encouraging words, support, not react in anger, understand where he is coming from, submit, treat him how I want to be treated

4. To incorporate You more into my daily life verbally and prayerfully with my kids

5. To be a better shepherd to those I have been entrusted: my children and husband, Life Group members, Discussion Group Leaders

I have to make one thing clear about all this as I end my first post, "Not to us, Lord, not to us, but to Your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness. (Ps 115:1)

I know this won't be easy. Maybe that's why He wanted me to make this public for accountability? for others to join me? I'm not sure. What I do know is that throughout this, I will be as transparent as possible, but sensitive to privacy as well. I will not force anything and I also cannot guarantee I will post every day. I'm nervous and a little scared as well, but it feels good all at the same time. However, that seems to be the theme of all this. Get out of my comfort zone and obey Him.