So, tonight I found my dad's slideshow a friend made for me for my dad's 10 year anniversary of his death and it seems fitting to watch it while spending this time with my heavenly Father. Not sure what this time will bring, except for tears of course, but I hope to jot down what I am thankful to the Lord for in terms of my dad.
Pieces of my opening prayer...I love you Lord and I just want to spend this time with You looking back on my life. What you gave me and what was taken from me. I'm not mad. It is what it is and I know you are here with me. This time is Yours.
Brian's kids look so much like him, it's unreal. I'm thankful that his looks will continue in our family:)
I'm thankful that I get to see him again. I can't wait.
I'm thankful that he really was a Super dad. He could do it all and he did.
I'm thankful that he was loving and affectionate with me. I always felt loved.
I'm thankful that he showed me what it meant to have his priorities in line.
I'm thankful that he had a good life for the most part and that he made mine better.
I wish I could be spending my life with him right now and that he could play with my kids, but I'm thankful for the short time I had with him.
I am thankful that he was always There and always Available.
I'm thankful for the conversations my mom and I had on the beach in Florida together this year. I had a lot of questions answered that I always wanted to ask her.
I remembered a note of bible verses Mark left for me on my dresser after my dad died. One verse in particular stuck from Psalm 68. So I decided to read it aloud tonight and see what was laid on my heart.
Psalm 68: 3-5
"But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful. Sing to God, sing praise to His name, extol Him who rides on the clouds - His name is the Lord - and rejoice before Him. A father to the fatherless, a defender of the widows, is God in His holy dwelling."
He promises to be by strength here on earth without my dad. I have peace in that.
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